the
Master plan (attempt) for the
Masters program: a
Masterpiece in the works ...
Narrowing. It seems to be the key word - what we must do to unravel the focus of our academic journey here. Much simpler said than done, but I will attempt to analyze my intentions here at The New School.
As I’ve stated before in my intellectual autobiography and Literature/Media review, I really do believe in finding ways to contribute positively in my own (be it small or large) way. Like any good invention, there are people out there exploiting and using it negatively, and some out there wishing to make that impact of goodness - to advocate, inspire, bring into light.
My one very distinct path is definitely to obtain the Media Management Certificate. Not to just frame and hang on my wall (as I do not see anything wrong with being proud in one’s accomplishments), but also to acquire the specific skills I am lacking in and have not been exposed to during my undergraduate Music studies at UCLA. Next semester, I plan to take the first class of the four, “Media Economics” to begin that informing process. My two other classes have been wisely selected to one, fulfill the methods requirement and two, to contribute to my overall goal of knowing how to reach out via media - “Research Methods for Media Activism.”
How do we become a media activist? How do we motivate? Just like marketers research how to bring the shoppers into a store, or consumer to click on an ad, I wonder how we make those same people think for others and do something positive. (This in itself is dangerous, as I do recognize, because there are the groups exploiting the goodness or good will of citizens). Thus, the “Market Research for Media Managers,” is a class I wanted to take soon, but halted as I was advised not to take on four classes in a semester.The third registered class for next semester is “Projects in Media Advocacy.” I am especially excited for this class because this is one of the classes that caught my eye before applying to the program. There are many organizations I have ready (and have volunteered for) to collaborate for this class, although I’m a bit nervous about the technical/production demands. Nonetheless, I’ve been given approval to take it without the prerequisite.
Spring semester 2010 looks to be settled for the time being. However, I did give myself a timeline of two years (the average time for the MA program at The New School). This is for various reasons, finance being one of them. Currently I’m very happy to be receiving a small scholarship from the department. This means I have to take nine credits every semester. I’m running my small business online, but I also need extra income as we know the turmoils of the start up. I am looking for a PT/FT job so I can support myself and contribute to my family. I’ve always loved volunteering, and I am with my church and other organizations. I often fall in the trap of spreading myself too thin, and I anticipate the possibility in the near future. And that leads me to the next question.
To thesis or not to thesis? I’ve wavered a few times already. I have much to say, and to my encouragement, my TA has even said my last Literature/Media review assignment hit thesis-like notes (which made me quite happy). Reality wise, I am constrained with time. But I do not want to regret not having the opportunity to do so. However, at the same time, I feel like the thesis time will take away from the time I can take other classes. But would it all be worth it? See, herein lies one of my indecision. I’ve made several rationalizations for either argument, but hopefully with the guidance of the experienced, I will find my answer.
For example, Douglas Rushkoff’s book and lecture was very inspirational for me. He would be a professor I’d be honored to work with (however I’m unsure of the options for the online student). Outside from the facebook groups, I’m not sure how else to connect better. I’ve called my advisor once, but aside from that, I have not been able to do so. I feel somewhat limited since I’ve already encountered a class I had wanted to take, but is not offered online (for the time being: “Competitive Strategies: Branding is not, but the professor did say to keep checking in since things may change). It has crossed my mind to take a summer in NYC, but I have heard that the summer classes are usually not as pertinent (correct me if I am wrong). Of course there is the expense to consider. Also, all the NYC events I cannot attend oftentimes frustrate me, but the gem of the online aspect was an initial draw for me since I do travel quite often.
My weakness is definitely the theories area, as I’m struggling in that class as I speak. That class in particular has made me feel the most lost ever- intimidated and insecure. Feelings that I are very foreign to me. This is a great area to segue way into the ‘suggestions’ area. Since I’ve been struggling with this class, I haven’t been able to reach out to people the way I’m used to in the academic setting. I’m a very one-on-one/face-to-face person and yes it is interesting to be taking an online program (but that is part of the challenge for me - to thrust myself into a ill-at-ease place, out of the ‘comfort zone). I would like to form a group in Los Angeles - for the online students. I feel very disconnected. So if I can connect with alums in L.A so we can speak to and meet in person in regards to internships, job opportunities, event collaborations and etc. I would like to head up events where New School alums can meet and share their experiences. My high school in Pebble Beach has an annual Holiday Party to connect Stevenson alums and I think something similar would be great for the current New School students.
Naturally, with my retail start-up, the fashion program, the new MFA in fashion and society is very appealing to me. However, my problem has always been to focus and hone in. So, while these opportunities make me excited, I worry that it will tempt me to stray in focus. Although, another way to look at it might be to simply just embrace it. I’ve been taught and raise to focus because I’ve always been too interested in too many things. Certainly there are areas I definitely know do not interest me, however, I was the girl who wanted to play basketball softball, and take jazz, tap and modern dance class. I’ve been all over the place, wanting to do everything constantly. I feel this way still, at the age of 26 years old. There are certain things in my life I am certain of, but I love to sing. I love to paint. I love to decorate. I love to design. I want to help. I want to give. I want to inspire. I want to motivate. I strive to activate. I strive to advocate. I strive to heal. I strive to better.
I’m certain this program will allow me to grow and discover. I can feel the possibilities that will arise and I anticipate the knowledge I will receive. Certainly this is the place to be for me to fuse all the verbs I’ve listed above and reach that haven. Two weeks left in my first semester of graduate study at The New School, I’ve already realized the new angles in my thought process, learned more about the design process, and tried to keep up in the current of heated theoretical debates.The exciting news is there will always be boundless of knowledge to be learned and spread, and I’m privileged to be part of that group of media soon-to-be scholars who carry the responsibility of that all-too-often stated ‘brighter tomorrow.” Here, I will perhaps create my version of the Da Vinci’s masterpiece, that will set the way, I truly hope.
Narrowing. I began with narrow and as I narrow in this program, I will only further expand my mind.
And that’s why it’s all so beautiful.